I Don't Know What I Would Say To Him

When We Two Parted
-Lord Byron

WHEN we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning
Sunk chill on my brow -
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame:
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me -
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well:
Long, long shall I rue thee,
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met
In silence I grieve,
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?
With silence and tears.

I Can't Go - I Have Trial Team

Ok so I feel like this whole facebook group thing is out of hand. I'm reading my news feed a few days ago and my friends back in ol' A-Town have created a Facebook Group called "I Can't Go I have Rehursal" and I thought to myself. That's true - I feel that

But then I thought I need a group too. I should make one - and it would be called "I Can't Go - I Got Trial Team". Then the question is...ok then um where the group for "I Can't Join Anymore Facebook Groups - It Makes My Profile Page Too Long."

This is so fun - an exercise in Threat Construction [for all you debaters out there].


In other news I really can't go.

I got Trial Team.

Old School Jars of Clay

Old School Jars of Clay is soooooo good.

In our Violence Against Women Room - one of the songs played while the open house was going on was Tea and Sympathy...love it


Fare thee well
Trade in all our words for tea and sympathy
Wonder why we tried, for things that could never be
Play our hearts lament, like an unrehearsed symphony

Not intend
To leave this castle full of empty rooms
Our love the captive in the tower never rescued
And all the victory songs
Seem to be playing out of tune

But its not the way
That it has to be
Dont trade our love for tea and sympathy
cause its not the way
That it has to be

You begin
And all your words fall to the floor and break like china cups
And the waitress grabs a broom and tries to sweep them up
I reach for my tea and slowly drink in

Chorus:

cause its not the way
That it has to be
Dont trade our love for tea and sympathy
cause its not the way
That it has to be
Dont trade our love for tea and sympathy

So fare thee well
Words the bag of leaves that fill my head
I could taste the bitterness and call the waitress instead
She holds the answer, smiles and asks one teaspoon or two

[chorus x 2]

Dont trade us for tea and sympathy
Dont trade us for tea and sympathy
We can work it out
Dont trade us for tea and sympathy
Dont trade us for tea and sympathy
We can work it out
Dont trade us for tea and sympathy
We can work it out


good song :-)


Speaking of Violence Against Women - Jeremy - good luck tomorrow TAKE IT TO THE HOLE...be the light God made you to be in that Courtroom tomorrow!

Violence Against Women Day - Once A Liar Always A Liar

Today we focused on violence against women in our symposium and it got me thinking, or rather reflecting on some real-life applications [or recent events] if you will. I'll tell you what really roasts my grits - when Men get away with behavior that women are villanized for, at women's expense. Let's take the issue of Domestic Violence. Domestic Violence is the abuse of trust for control. Domestic Violence extends farther than hitting your girlfriend, beating your fiance, or raping your wife. It extends to manipulation of women for control. When men lie and say they love a woman while fully intending to cheat on her or do her wrong - it's abusive of trust for control. The use of the words "I love you" or "I want to marry you" or "I want to be with you forever" or "I will follow you anywhere" when he doesn't really mean it are used to keep a woman close by, keep her on lock so to speak so that a man gets to keep his security blanket.

It is used to allow a man access to thing a conservative christian woman wouldn't ever let a man have access to - most of all her innermost thoughts, feelings, dreams, and trust - so that he can feel better about himself. These men want the GOOD that comes from being with a good woman - but they want it at a discount.

What's perhaps even more cruel is when the woman gives in - her "man" has already cheated on her or lied to her or beaten her and so she starts out doing all she can to tell him no - she tells him to leave her alone because she can't ever trust him and he begs you for another chance.

LISTEN UP WOMEN: He begs you to believe him begs you to love him and begs you to SAY OUT LOUD that you BELIEVE him and BELIEVE that he is telling the truth. He wants you to SAY OUT LOUD that yes, you'll be there for him to that YES you love him. He wants you to SAY OUT LOUD that yes you want to marry him because then HE'S GOT YOU.

LISTEN UP VICTIMS: He can manipulate you anyway he wants - once he raises a hand ONE TIME you're his if you don't walk away. If you don't make it known his behavior is not acceptable the first time he disrespects you that way it's over because he doesn't think you have the nerve to say TO YOURSELF he NEVER meant it and I AM SO FOOLISH that I BELIEVED A LIAR AND A CHEAT. He doesn't think you have the hutzpah TO SAY TO EVERYONE he's that cruel and that you're just that sad.

AND THEN when the day comes when he says I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE or let's be special friends where I get everything from you but I can get play when you're not here he doesn't think you can say no because he's abusing your trust in him. He'll come around, or I don't want to lose him, or I'll consent to anything he wants because I already said I loved him and I don't lie.

But sometimes they don't know that they don't mean it right? I guess that's even more heartbreaking - because then bridges are burned that don't have to be...it makes me so sad.

The best part is when he does this - "men will be men". This is what you get. Or "he's just scared of committment" or "that was a lot for him to deal with at once". Or there is always the "give him some time and space - all men are like that". YOU MUST BE JOKING. If I did the same thing to him that he did to me I'd be a whore or a b*tch or a monster. I'd be a slut - I'd be a psycho hose beast. But when he does it he's a playa. He's a serial bachelor and he becomes MORE ATTRACTIVE to all the women chasing him, to the woman who always thought that he was cheating on her with me when he was cheating on me with her. He becomes an enigma - the man everyone wants to tame. If I did it I'd become the woman everyone should stay away from. If he had any money I'd even be a gold digga. But what if he took my money? What if he drove my car? Used my stuff? Did whatever he wanted all the time and used me - then I'm just stupid for believing his crap. I should've known.

YOU MUST BE JOKING ME.

THERE IS NOTHING DIFFERENT BETWEEN THIS AND THE BABY BABY BABY I'M SO SORRY AFTER HE HITS HIS GIRLFRIEND EXCEPT THAT NOW MY SOUL IS DESTROYED...and those bruises will NEVER heal...at least without Christ...

THIS IS STRUCTURAL VIOLENCE AND I FOR ONE WILL NOT TAKE IT ANYMORE.


and you shouldn't either


but what do you do when you really belive he didn't mean it - are you just stupid or is he really not as bad of a person as he thinks he is?

Either way - good luck and godspeed to those who fight this everyday - his children shall not e crushed in court without defenders anymore